Sunday, October 30, 2011

Jumping on the positivity train...

Jumping on the positivity train...and I'm not looking back.

2011 hasn't been the easiest or the best year for me. I went through a lot of changes and when I say a lot.. I mean A LOT. But we only learn and grow from what challenges us. The so called speed bumps in life help build character and make us who we are. I think that everything does happen for a reason. I've learned so much this past year. I've realized a lot about myself and what I really want out of life. 

My whole world was turned upside down in August. I lost my house, my dog Bosley and although I didn't quite lose extended family. Not to mention someone I was with for almost 5 years. Everything that I was used to and loved pretty much vanished. But I started looking at everything as a necessary change. I needed to lose all of this to gain so much more. I've had such a hard time this year struggling with career decisions and dealing with depression. I am now depression free, making important decisions for my future and smiling 10x more than I have been in a long time. Now I'm not saying I was unhappy 100% of the time but my life was definitely lacking.

I looked at my last blog entry and wanted to delete it immediately because I don't feel like that at all anymore. But that is all a part of the process, having regret, sadness, acceptance and moving on. It all doesn't happen over night. Thinking back to when I wrote the last post and how I felt to how I feel now makes me smile. I'm in such a good place now.

I'm ok with being alone. I'm enjoying my time with my friends and family. Although I am with the same
company, now I am working at a different location with all new faces. Meeting new people and going out on dates to see what is out there. Life is looking different and well... it's looking good.

"It always seems impossible until it's done."
- Nelson Mandela

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; But often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us."
- Helen Keller

"Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently."
- Henry Ford