Love Lost - The Temper Trap

Here's the song that I mentioned. Maybe it will get stuck in your head too.

Here's to you Mrs. Robinson......hey hey hey

For some reason today I am full of energy.. oh wait excuse me. Productive Energy.

I am capitalizing it because lately it is very rare I am like this. I woke up at 8am ready to work. (and super cheery I might add) I started cleaning, got all of my hair cutting/coloring tools together. I turned on the tv in the kitchen, ground coffee beans (the annoying sound was blissful music to my ears for some strange reason) and made some coffee. Not even pissed off that all I had to eat for breakfast was a stale chocolate hazelnut biscotti. A client of mine came over at 9:00am for a cut and color and I got done in very fast timing- doing a very good job. Made some $$$ and then cleaned some more. Cut my boyfriend's brother's hair then proceeded to do the monstrous amount of dishes( that I did not make dirty) while humming  Love Lost by The Temper Trap. (which I will be posting on here after this, maybe it will get it out of my head) All of this before 12. Shit normally when I have do the dishes made dirty by 3-6 men(none by me) all I can do is visualize punching them in the head for every dish they leave crusted over with food. I'm proud of myself today. GO ME.

Seems like a normal morning... not quite for me. Lately I have been extremely tired, cranky, stressed or depressed. Everything is a chore and bothersome and If I have to work at 3pm..I'm usually being unproductive, sitting on the couch until 12 or 1. I don't want to be like this, I prefer today's mood. But lately I have been in a horrible "funk". Maybe this is a sign that things will be ok.

One thing that shocks me ..a little bit. I was extremely entertained watching Justin Bieber on The View today. What?! Bieber? I can't stand that little douche!  Nope not anymore. Maybe it was this weird mood I am in today but I was a little smitten by this charming young man on there. He was so adorable. I don't think I have the "bieber fever" and I am pretty sure I won't be humming any of his songs while I do the dishes any time soon.

However I can't help but hear Simon & Garfunkel's Mrs. Robinson play in my head. He may be growing on me. I don't want to puke when I see him on tv anymore. So thats a plus.. One more Semi-fan for him. 

Wishing I didn't have to waste this mood on work tonight. Hoping this day will stay on this "positive productive path". Say that 10 times fast. 

Keep it in your mouth

The moment you think you've seen it all from your significant other, they surprise you. I've been with my boyfriend Patrick for over 4 years and in our case I am the surpriser.  

I'm sure you can tell just solely based on my past 2 blogs that I am a bit stressed. Well that's a little understated.

Here I am watching tv (more specifically Regis & Kelly- Kristen Chenoweth is standing in for Kelly and she is like a little ball of fun! ) with my boyfriend this morning and I'm already laughing because I'm easily amused.

I always love to sit on our love seat that is facing our large living room window in the morning, especially when it's beautiful and sunny out like today. Patrick and I were practically in mid-conversation and I saw a baby squirrel run across the street over into our neighbors yard. I love animals but today was a bit much haha.

I saw the squirrel and stopped talking and eating my cereal. I probably had the biggest smile on my face like a little kid. The teeny squirrel ran so fast across the street and it was just the cutest thing. It was like I forgot about everything and just focused on it. Ok that was my ADD moment

Then returned back to earth and Pat was like " what?!" I said, "Oh my God, there was the cutest tiny baby squirrel running across the street!!!" Realizing I sounded like an overexcited child I started laughing. (Pat is hysterically laughing at me by the way)

Laughing eh...no big deal. Laughing with milk and cereal in your mouth. Hey! Not Easy! I was laughing uncontrollably trying my hardest to keep the mouthful of goodness contained.  ( Goodness because Honey Sunshine by Kashi is DELIGHTFUL)

I laughed non-stop for at least 2-3 minutes with 2% milk gradually spouting out of my mouth like a mall fountain(Where did they go by the way, I want to throw my pennies in damn it! )

I have to say at one point I had to bury my face in my sweater because I KNOW that couldn't have been attractive. Milk soaked sleeves feel great by the way. Good for the skin.

Pat was laughing - probably in disbelief and said " ADHD much?!"

I know he was thinking he had never seen me get like that, like a hyper active 8 year old that can't eat their breakfast like a civilized person. He loves me even more now.

I can tend to be sporadic and goofy. But today was a sign that I am reaching a stress level that I haven't experienced in a while. Whenever I get stressed I laugh uncontrollably. I get this from my mother. I remember days growing up watching my mother's face getting as red as atomic bomb candy (yes- dark red). She would laugh for hours..... laugh. stop.. laugh again.. stop. This would only happen once in a blue moon but I'm not going to lie I enjoyed it. Laughing is contagious and she always had a way to turn a sub par "B" movie to a box office hit in our house.

Occasionally I will witness the stressed "laugh attacks" when I'm with my mom but I think she passed it on to me. lol shucks! Thanks Mom! 

So maybe I need a vacation, or some type of stress reliever.  Although the length of laughter can be painful and can produce tears. I am happy that I laugh instead of cry. well as long as I don't have food in my mouth. I just can't keep it in.

BAM! WHACK! POP!

With a crew full of roofers on top of my house- that is all I am hearing right now. I can barely hear myself thinking. I was in a blissful slumber this morning and instead of birds chirping I hear sounds of roof construction so loud It instantly gives me a splitting headache.

I was left without a car today until lunch time so my only solution is to use these two legs of mine and head out on a mission to find silence- or less annoying destructive sounds.

I decided to walk 10 blocks to my rec center, listen to some tunes and then relax and workout to get away from all that noise.  I would normally stay at the gym for atleast an hour but for some reason I wasn't feeling it today. Perhaps its the lack of breakfast or knowing that I couldn't work out until my legs felt like jello because i'd have to briskly walk back to my house in the sun in time for lunch with the boyfriend. Either way, I am stuck in construction hell again. Crossing my fingers this headache goes away before work. It doesn't look too promising considering these guys will be here all day.

Oh and I got such a lovely "welcome" home from my dog when I got back.  I let Bosley out of his cage and walked right upstairs to my room to change into dry clothes. Bosley followed me as usual except this time he looked at me and peed. On top of a comforter that was folded on the floor (on its way to the laundry room)

Ok. I know that dogs can't make "faces" but I swear he looked up at me and was like "fuck you". "Thanks for leaving me in this loud box while you enjoy mother nature outside". If you saw him, you would see "the face" too. Who knows maybe im hungry and going crazy. lol

 He looks stressed from all of this noise so I will let that little mess go. But to make it better..I picked up the comforter to take it to the washer and as I am walking down my bedroom stairs, the pee started "rolling" off the blanket..landing everywhere I walked with it. I had to clean all of that up. Almost happy the roofers are here so people can't hear my swearing.

If that wasn't enough, he didn't give me time to recover/regroup. He just goes into number 2. poopie poop. I clean that up, dropping each little nugget over and over. I finally get it in the toilet and it starts to overflow. So here I am trying to keep this poop filled water from spilling all over my clean bathroom and all over me. Thank you God for giving me unbelievable plunging skills.

Lately I have been getting fed up with work and the catty drama bullshit that comes along with it. So if the BAM WHACK POP, the dog's vengeful bladder and the crumbly stink nuggets are any indication as to what I will have to deal with tonight at work. Then I am "checking" out for the day.

Shears and tears

Some days I wonder why I ever decided to do hair. Why did I enroll in cosmetology school? But then there are always those days that remind me. I love the art, creativity and therapy in doing hair and creating beauty.

Lately I have been feeling a little down and discouraged. I need inspiration. After all the hard work.... 1500 hours of hard work at Brown Aveda Institute and obtaining my cosmetology license( not to mention the 15+ grand of tuition and fees) and I'm still assisting.  I enrolled at Brown Aveda in 2009 because I wanted to be the best I could be. Go to the best hair school. Develop skills and create opportunities for myself that would surpass the typical half ass "beauty school" grads. Don't get me wrong.. some of the best hair stylists have went to the shittiest low budget schools...with no structure, no discipline and no advanced techniques or amazing perks like what i was fortunate enough to have. Because bottom line, it's all about talent, passion and drive. It doesn't matter where you go..In the end if you got it, you got it. 

However, paying the big bucks to go to the amazing school I went to. Can really pay off in the end too. The experience I gained and the knowledge I obtained during my 1500 hours there was priceless. I am so proud to be alumni from BAI. The browns are great people and they are business geniuses. 

Assisting? Is it worth it. Absolutely. But how long? Honestly..it can be a little soul crushing. If you aren't in a program that is constantly challenging you to learn more and do better..then what are you doing? Will you lose "it". Sure you can totally lose it. That is how I feel some days. If I didn't do hair at home, I would be doubting my talents 10x more than I already do. I am in a fantastic salon and I am so fortunate for that. 

I understand. 

• you have to pay your dues
• work your way up from the bottom
• learn from the best

 But at 10 months of assisting...10 months of wasting my talent..and possibly "losing it" in a program that is pretty much telling me.. "Hey you, girl that spent all the money on Brown Aveda Education and technique and worked so very hard to master...FORGET IT ALL. Start over!" 

It's driving me insane. Shears and Tears man, Shears and Tears. I balled my eyes out more than once while attending BAI because...shit it was hard for me.. but then i got through the initial training and rocked the hell out of it.. got through it and loved it...but I am having flash backs to my shears and tears days and I am NOT digging it. Shouldn't I be jumping in there and gaining experience everyday....building upon my knowledge..adding techniques.. 

I have learned so much at my job- the ins and outs of a salon. I've grown as a stylist but not "technically" speaking. Thank god for doing hair at home so I remember what it's like to do hair. I'm around it, and get opportunities. But until I am actually doing my own clients. I don't think I will be happy. Loving your workplace and most of your coworkers isn't the key to happiness. unfortunately. Loving your craft...doing what you have passion for.. that's the key to happiness.  

Assisting is great for new grads. It is almost essential. I don't regret doing it,especially at a salon that will allow me to make the big bucks..or better bucks one day but is it for everyone? No. Can I make it through it..after 10 months in? Yes. 

With sanity? I don't know. 

Tumbler who?

So this is my first entry. It's late & this is going to be short. Completely new to the Blogger Community. I am contemplating abandoning my Tumblr blog or "moving" it to Blogger.

Either way, I am excited that I have found yet another outlet for all of my creativity, mindless babble and story telling in my little world of ramblings.